|Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006|
Last weekend: chicago
this weekend: montreal
next weekend: boston/providence
the next weekend: new york
then finally: spring break
aaagghhh. but yeah so I think I want to go to college instead of doing that whole ballet thing.. even though all those trips above are for ballet. I DON'T KNOW AAAHHH. but yeah... I got in to Tulane which is somewhere I've always really wanted to go, so we'll see..
The cool thing is it's february and I can still go to the beach Current Mood: always feel shitty at night
|Tuesday, November 8th, 2005|
for some reason i only update this when i'm not in the mood to actually say anything. so yeah there was a big ass hurricane (wilma) and then we were in the shelter. then there was no power and they're all like "Hmmm now the toilets wont even flush, pack enough clotehs to go to orlando for 3 days". so we do that. then from orlando they're like "Just kidding! everyone has to go home for a week and a half!". so yeah... went home with like no clotehs. luckily i left most of my shit there after i moved from winnipeg. buuuut yeah. I'm debating leaving Harid (my school) after this semester... that's a big secret though. well not really anymore i guess. but no one here knows it.. i dont think. For some reason I'm really really not happy here, for the first time ever I was dreading going back to school and that's never happened to me before
agh but what would i do?
Huntsville High?.... might not be bad... i guess
but where would i dance?
could try to dance at alabama ballet in birmingham...
but what about school?
what if i just stopped dancing all together and just went to college?
what if i stopped giving a shit about college and just danced like everyone else?
.... at lesat the harry potter movie comes out soon Current Mood: contemplative
|Saturday, September 3rd, 2005|
I have not been able to update in a while, mostly because caroline traumatized me last time i tried. i hope all of the college people are enjoying themselves. for me personally being away from home has gotten lame. maybe cause im stuck in a dorm with a bunch of lame people. there's a few cool ones, but most of them suck. i dont know im really really missing my canada friends and my home friends and... i just want this year to end already. oh well. haha. i hope everyone's having fun and i dont have much else to say
|Tuesday, August 9th, 2005|
i'm so not ready for this. I am not leaving in 10 hours to start a new year at a new school with new people. I can't do this I can't I can't I can't. I want my old friends :(. And I feel lonely tonight because there's no one to talk to. Now THAT wasn't lame.
I really hope everyone has fun at college, but I can't think of anyone that I don't think will do well. But still, best of luck to all of you.
So yea everything's going pretty well I guess. I've actually talked to Ian a couple times recently, and we've been getting along suprisingly well and on a totally friendly level. Which is good, it's a lot more comfortable that way. Maybe that was the problem all along... we were never friends first.
So yeah. Peter's gonna come visit at Christmas I think... for real this time too. Since I ended up going to school in florida his august visit wasn't able to work out. But you know... everything happens for a reason and a string of events has convinced me that it's better that way.
Still nervous about school. Maybe I should pack or something to feel better. Haha. At least chelsea will be there this year and we're rooming so it should be ok. thanks for listening to me whine Current Mood: nervous
|Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005|
|Sunday, July 31st, 2005|
it's like the good ol' days! this is the third summer that eric and I are pulling internet all nighters.. except it's sad cause i may never see him again.
on a brighter note i'm going to school at Harid in florida i decided... so i leave august 9th which means i'm not home for much longer :(. this was gonna be the longest summer at home since i started hgih school but now it's the shortest! 3 weeks of summer total! and i've already wasted half of it
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THE BIRTHDAY PEOPLE i hope you all had wonderful birthdays :):):)
imne's on wednesday by the way.... ;) haha jk
this all-nighter thing may be tough cause i have to make it to 9 and it's already like 430 or something i had my first yawn... time for mroe diet cherry vanilla dr. pepper
|Tuesday, July 26th, 2005|
|updating for no one
yay i turn 18 next wednesday. how exciting. sort of. guess it doesnt matter now that I'm in the states. It's wednesday tomorrow and no one has hung out with me since like... friday. why? mostly cause I'm awesome. oh well. being home sucks ass... that seems to be a reoccuring theme in my lj posts. wow i just realized how pathetic that sounds. heh heh oh well. Peter's mom in in winnipeg today or something and he says they're booking the flights to alabama while she's there. I'll believe it when the plane lands. :-/ but yeah.I guess all the winnipeg people are performing in ballet in the park this week :(. and i have to decide if I'm going to Harid or NCSA next year by friday. I'm leaning torwards NCSA but we'll see. Current Mood: moody
|Sunday, July 24th, 2005|
canada is too far away. and too expensive on phones. they should change that. it's basically america so why should it cost more?
home is boring. i told myself I'd make this summer fun to avoid getting down about leaving canada friends but so far it hasn't worked.
Peter is supposed to come visit in the first week of august...which is soon... but from what i understand his mom has yet to get their shit together so i'm very doubtful it will happen despite what he says.
I miss daniel... tons and tons and tons
and i miss girly talks with francois and going on walks and crying to him lmao.. but i dont miss his barbar streisand
i miss emma bitching all the time because no matter how hard she tried, I could tell when she was sad.
I miss everyone I guess. that's what it all comes down to.
I need to finish learning how to drive soon so that I can do that. but i just realized my mom starts work on august 3rd (my birthday) and after that I wont have a car anymore so why bother. lol so much for that idea.
My dad thinks I'm a fat-ass. I think he's a jackass. I'm glad we've come to some sort of agreement about things.
I miss canada... this wasn't supposed to happen.
"sing 'Oh what force on earth could be weaker than the feeble strength of one'
like me remembering the way it could've been.
so help me with this barricade- no surrender, no defeat
a spectre's haunting Albert Street
I am your Pamphleteer." Current Mood: I miss all of my friends
|Thursday, July 21st, 2005|
this sucks i still have like 5 weeks left and I think i want to rip my hair out of my head. everyone was all "dont worry ml, when you come home i'll hang out with you" and no one has with the exception of caroline who has been super awesome. I miss all of my best friends in canada and I want to go back but not to dance or have to live there just to be with my friends if that were possible. bleh for sadness. I also love the fact that two people tonight were all "can i call you back" and didn't. especially since one was peter. well fuck that shit. lol. i'm gonna
someone wants to play
:):):) im happy now
|Monday, June 13th, 2005|
goodbyes since last time:
more that i cant remember
:( this is kind of sad. but what can you do. its been raining but thats ok. I got no sleep last night I had to do end of term history project (20% of my mark) that I hadn't started on...then I woke up at 6 to take francois to the airport then went straight to ballet class then went to school and now im here and ready to pass out then i have to do my end of term psychology project
|Thursday, June 9th, 2005|
|Sunday, June 5th, 2005|
|it's the beginning of the end...
Official goodbyes so far:
I finally cried when I said bye to bob. :'( I'll miss him tons and tons. but yesterday I did my SATs which werent that bad at all and then i went to the mall with francois and peter then i went out to eat with emma, francois, and peter then we went to Nate and Amar's apartment where bob was and then we went to JDs with them then we said bye. yeah. I somehow managed to fall asleep in my clothes last night and wake up at 8 this morning. I guess I was tired. I can't believe how much everyone here impacted my life and now I will never see them again... :'( this is rough lol. Eric leaves today... :'( that's going to be an interesting goodbye. only a couple of other people leave before me: margaret, francois, katherine, emma. but i still have to say bye to everyone else its just that I'll say bye to them all at once or something. next weekend is my last weekend here. I'm not going to thnink about it anymore
today is sunday...and they're making us start packing today. fuckers. but yeah anyway I'm going to pack up one box to ship home I think. and clean out one desk. sounds good
I hope summer will be ok
i'm really scared as to how I will handle all of this once I get home... I go home the 16th and I leave on the 19th to go to a ballet school in florida (Harid) for 3 weeks then Im back in Hville for 6 weeks
6 weeks is the longest I've been home since the end of 8th grade
what the fuck am I gonna do Current Mood: WHAT'S HAPPENINGGGG
|Monday, May 16th, 2005|
the second one was taken today as a tribute to the fact that i danced for the first time in one month today. I only did to second tendue (thats like 3 exercises for all u people who dont know what they're talking about) cause thats all i was allowed to do... but yeah
i go home in exactly one month...forever... very mixed emotions about that one Current Mood: confused
|Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005|
I'm bored...everyone else has rehearsals. Its also the night we're all forced to go watch the company perform a ballet. this means i have to get dressed up. damn it
I have random pictures... i hate when people do this so dont look if you arent interested( YAYCollapse ) Current Mood: good
|Tuesday, April 26th, 2005|
So it's official...I told the artistic staff yesterday that I'm not coming back. I guess it finally seems completely real to me. I have a few friendships to patch up and stuff...and a few people to thank. I started packing up some stuff to ship home, so yeah.
my hair is orange-red now, it's pretty sweet. at least by canadian culture standards... i think i'll change it before i go back to alabama
I guess for the first time I can truly say I'm just...sad. I'm not depressed or anything just...sad. but that's ok because I know its for the best. It was cold today (in the 30's) and it sucked. but whatever.
I dont have much else to say Current Mood: sad
|Sunday, April 24th, 2005|
Last night was kind of...yea it was lame. The party was so bad I just sat on the couch with a bottle of vodka and almost finished it. Then I went with other less than amused people and got sushi, which was way cooler than playing body part twister and ending up with my nose on someone's crotch or something.
on a different note, the realization that I am leaving canada in less than two months and wont ever see any of these people ive been with for 3 years again is becoming more and more real. I know all of you at home are graduating and getting ready to leave home, but trust me, thats the easy part. I bet once you leave college it'll be harder. oh yeah...to the home people, I hope you all had fun promming it up or whatever. I want to see lots of pictures of everyone so I can live vicariously through you and pretend that I have had a somewhat normal high school experience. As much as I sometimes resent that, it's definitely for the best that I left home. I think if I had stayed at randolph I would've become someone that I hated (there wasnt exactly much room for individuality there). So I guess thats good, it's all part of the process of "finding yourself" or something.
My friend emma went to second cup...I gave her some money and hopefully she'll bring me a brownie Current Mood: okay
|Thursday, April 21st, 2005|
oops... Current Mood: distressed
|Wednesday, April 20th, 2005|
|IM A ROBOT
oh man im so hot I have the robot leg again aren't you jealous???
its just for a week though...
heres some inspiration
(It enhances the line, trust me ms weber) by daniel
kate and i were gonna take a real life picture but her camera went to sleep
bye Current Mood: i look awesome
|Tuesday, April 19th, 2005|
so uh I went to the weakerthans concert on saturday night...AND IT WAS THE MOST AWESOME THING EVER! or close to it atleast. it made me so happy after my bad week :):):) yay. ummm not much has happened since then. My shin still hurts a lot.. how the hell do u fracture your shin twice in a year? oh right you become a fucking moron like me that's how. >:O anywho... ummm yea ive been in a weird mood today but maybe i didnt eat enough or maybe i ate too much or something i dont really remember but i DO have a headache but thats ok. I've been thinking a lot about leaving. It makes me sad. I'm really scared. I started to clean out my closets over the weekend...got rid of a lot of stuff. Still dont know how I'll get everything home. I'm sure it won't be too bad.... I'm gonna pre-ship some of my winter things because theyr'e light so itll be cheap and i dont need them any time soon so i can send them by the slowest mail possible aka any canadian mail. ummm yeah. john's back in town so yay! in town=huntsville which is not where i am at all but uh whatever. shhhhh.... we'll pretend. im supposed to do some project or something for english by friday but uh thats what thursday night's for. not like i'll be dancing since im pulled form the god damn show... they act like a fracture is a real injury or something god.
it was cold today (about 50 degrees... or 10 degrees...depending on which type your prefer) so that was sad
I finished the Great Gatsby today...anyone who told me that was a boring book is a fucking moron. and i stand by that.
the end Current Mood: spirals comin out of my head
|Friday, April 15th, 2005|
so today was better than yesterday, except that I went to physio and the doctor for my shins...and MY FREAKIN STRESS FRACTURE IS BACK so I have atleast 2 weeks of no dancing at all...the shows in 4....guess who's totally and completely FUCKED. shit shit shit shit. hb;lahv;iah;eiha;eihea; at this point i dont give a damn about the show anymore I decided, I'm just going to actually take care of my injury this time and do what I need to do to let that goddamn bone heal completely. so yeah. but I did get 2 awesome phone messages today except one was kinda drunk but thats ok cause it was funny and not drunk like my dad it was a different drunk so thats good I guess. My stupid bone is throbbing...I wonder if after they pull me from the show I still have to go to watch rehearsals? I hope not. atleast now once I get back into dancing I can put all of my energy into class and into improving... and not just like getting through class so I can push through rehearsal
on a cooler note, my school got a letter saying i somehow managed an OK score on my PSATs and might be a national merit semi finalist or something...which is awesome cause I had 2 days notice before I took them so i looked at the book thing the day before. except i only looked at the stuff I was good at...so i completely fucked up the math crap. whatever. lol
now that Im not dancing for two weeks i'll either be so depressed i'll accidentally not eat or i'll end up eating too much and become fat. wonderful. i hate both options. and my lips are chapped and i cant find any chapstick..stupid dry winnipeg air
that's right...im whining on my fucking livejournal Current Mood: INJURED